caycay | I've Been Lonely

"Hnngh...." Idia's barely coherent, unconsciously shivering thanks to the lingering twitches he feels against and within his body. Once he pries his eyes open he's somewhat aware of the odd scarlet glow reflecting off the nearby wall and his very dazed boyfriend, though. "Hunh...?"

Why is the lock of flaming hair wrapped around Cater's fingers red? He stares blankly at it for a while, uncomprehending. Is... is that his? He's seen it go kind of orange like a bonfire or lava before when he's really fired (pun intended) up, but this? Like the lovemaking, this is totally new.

Resting against his boyfriend, Cater starts to smile. "Hey, you," he murmurs as he continues playing with Idia's hair. "Have I mentioned within the last five minutes how much I love you?"

It's a silly, still breathless question, and even before Idia has a chance to answer he's feeling a fit of giddy, lightheaded giggles coming on, making both of their bodies bounce. He feels like his bones have completely dissolved--there's no way he's moving anytime soon.

Oh oh gods oh, Cater's giggles are sending vibrations through him where they're still joined and Idia can't help a whimpering moan from slipping out. He's overstimulated and exhausted, but at least his brain is still pickled in happy chemicals. Honestly, he feels like he might be non-functional for hours after coming that hard. Somehow he manages to paw weakly at Cater's arm in a silent demand for cuddles, because if he's going to be pinned here under his giggling, infuriating, adorable boyfriend, then he wants to be held, dammit.

He lost his virginity and gained a boyfriend with a kind heart. Who could've imagined something like this would ever happen to poor, unlucky Idia Shroud?

Idia doesn't have to make himself any clearer, especially when his own body is trembling with exhaustion and slowly starting to cool down. He reaches for a blanket to throw over them, hardly caring how messily it might be draped, and winds his arms underneath Idia's body once again, holding him close.

Even just the idea of craning up to kiss Idia on the lips sounds exhausting, so he presses a smooch on his collar where he rests before letting out a shuddering sigh. Despite all of his fears and protestations, Cater Diamond had found himself someone that he would in no way allow himself to lose. It should frighten him, knowing the potential devastation of not having Idia in his life any longer, but instead he founds himself filled with a quiet determination not to be pried away.

No matter what might wait for them tomorrow or the next day, he'd been there, ready to take Idia's hand.

They're both sticky and sweaty but too damned tired to care, so Idia lets the mess be Future Idia's problem and conks out in Cater's arms. Boyfriends make great weighted blankets, provided they don't snore.

An hour or so later, he drags himself back to consciousness, repaying the collarbone kiss with one on the crown of Cater's head. Ugh, he does feel gross with everything drying on his skin but at the same time he's reluctant to move. At least at some point Cater slipped out of him, so shifting his position a bit isn't making his body do the horny keysmash thing anymore.

"Hn... Cater, we gotta get up. Wizard needs shower badly." Okay, it's not the actual quote from the game but close enough. He nudges his boyfriend's shoulder. "You still in sleep mode?"

Cater can be a pretty deep sleeper, but what with all the sensations firing through his body, he settles into more of a prolonged doze, stirring occasionally to smile at the realization that he's still in Idia's arms. When the call to actually wake up and get clean finally comes, he whines. "I can get up," he confirms on a sigh, "Just don't want to."

Even cuddling will feel better again once they're cleaned up. The problem is forcing his legs to move at all. "Bard wants ten more minutes."

"Ten, got it." Normally he'd set an alarm on his phone but even though it would only take a quick verbal command he doesn't bother. He rubs his hand slowly up and down Cater's bare back under the covers, grinning. "That was some level up ding, huh?"

It's amazing how different he feels mentally. Something that brought him both curiosity and anxiety turned out to feel amazing, and that he shared it with an actual boyfriend is even better. Knowing they'll get to do it again, almost whenever they want? Even better.

"For real," he agrees. He even feels like he's leveled up--being intimate with someone you've professed your love for is so above and beyond any of his previous experiences. Humming pleasantly in response to Idia's caresses he grins, back to his cheeky self now that they've come down from the most stupefying stage of their post-orgasm high. "How does it feel to have turned in your V-Card?"

"Definite huge grin emoji here, GGWP." Idia sighs contentedly, fingertips idly tracing the dip of Cater's spine. "Nice to finally use that key item, and with the right player, too. I did okay for a newbie?"

Hopefully he won't stay in the newbie bracket too long. They have the rest of the night if their bodies cooperate, and if that's the case then Idia will grind like he always does when he's hyperfixated.

"You did amazing, sweetie," Cater assures him the style of the most appropriate meme that jumps to mind, leaning in to steal a quick, smiling kiss. "You realize after you clean yourself up I'm going to get you all dirty again, right?"

If he wasn't sure that they'd probably get into some kind of accident from how wobbly they're feeling, Cater'd be gung-ho to fuck him in the shower, too.

"Fresh dirty is better than crusty dirty." As soon as Cater pulls back from the kiss, Idia leans up for one of his own. "I hope we're not BoE to each other, I love you but it would be super awkward."

They'll get better at it. Or they can get something non-slip for the floor. Maybe then they can fully debauch Idia's shower.

"You finally got me," Cater says with a small laugh. "I have no idea what BoE stands for."

He can probably guess from context, but...he wants Idia to explain, anyway. In part to expand his knowledge of terms that mean something to his boyfriend, and in part to see if he'll get embarrassed trying to put it into words. Either way, it's a win.

Idia grins proudly. It's always nice when someone takes an interest in his nerdy hobbies, and it's even better when that someone is a precious person in his heart. If he can teach Cater more about gaming, he's sharing something he loves with the person he loves.

"Bind on equip. It means once you equip something, it's connected permanently to that character. Bind on account is similar but you can trade the item to different alts on the same account, you just can't transfer it between accounts." His grin becomes a bit of a cheeky smirk, Cater's definitely rubbing off on him. "And you definitely equipped me since you were kinda wearing me for a while there."

The explanation makes him snort out another laugh. "Ha! Okay, I get it. Well, I think we're definitely removable, but my account is definitely bound to yours."

If they weren't alone, he'd be a little embarrassed himself saying something so corny. It would be different if it was a non-gaming related pun! What's more important, though, is that he knows Idia will appreciate it.

"In any case, I definitely plan on being the one equipped to you when we start the next round."

Okay, that makes Idia blink, his grin folding into a rather adorably confused look. "Wait, you want me to... are you sure? It's not like I've got the proficiency score for that yet, what if I hurt you?"

He'd never forgive himself if he caused his boyfriend actual pain! The thought of it causes his stomach to clench.

Cater can't help but grin from ear to ear at Idia's expression. "I'm way beyond sure," he confirms, sitting up a bit on his elbow. "Don't worry, I can still be on top and leading...but I can't let you greet tomorrow still halfway a virgin, can I? Not when I'm after that legendary armor."

But his expression softening, he cups Idia's face in one hand. "You won't hurt me, I promise."

Cater is so, so sweet to him. It almost brings Idia to tears, knowing how profound this unexpected love is. He leans into the touch, closing his eyes for a moment and taking a deep breath. "I... I believe you."

He wants to see Cater in his hoodie, wants a photo of him lounging on the mussed bed in that and nothing else, and the lustful thought still manages to take him by surprise even after what they've done. But he wants to do more than that, and a plan for later starts to form in his overactive brain. For now, though, they have more pressing matters at hand.

"We really need to clean up, then. Just a quick shower, okay?" Reluctantly, Idia pulls away and stands up, letting his legs adapt to standing again. Oof, it's a good thing Cater wanted extra time, he probably would've buckled to the floor if he'd gotten up sooner. Of course, there's another problem now that he's vertical.

"Uhhh...."

As Idia detangles himself and stands, Cater flops back over, stretching out like a lazy cat. Quick shower it is, which means they definitely have to go in turns so they don't end up getting incredibly distracted like last time. When he pauses, though, Cater rolls onto his side to look at him.

"Hm?" From his angle, Idia looks amazing, and he's not sure exactly what the hesitation's about. "What's up?"

"It's...." Idia pauses, making a face. He's not grossed out or anything, it's just unexpected and feels kinda weird. "It's... um... dripping down my thigh."

Yeah, time to get cleaned up, though his walk to the bathroom is a bit more hesitant and awkward now. He really doesn't want to clean it off his floor and he's not sure how much is still in there. Cater came hard, they both did. Idia definitely took the brunt of the mess, though. "OMG I feel so bizarre. Not bad, just... different."

There's a couple of seconds where Cater's so surprised by what Idia says that he doesn't react. And then it swells in him, laughter bursting from his lips in a torrent of amusement. "Oh, Seven! I'm sorry, my bad!"

Because it's his fault, for sure. And it's not like it crossed his mind to think about what might happen afterward. "Clench, Flam-bae, clench!" Not that Idia would have an easy time clenching right now. That's definitely some muscle strength he'll have to work on.

Idia makes a noise like a slowly dying miniature whale and hobbles more quickly into the bathroom, his face burning. "Ha ha, real funny! Feel like the world's runniest cream doughnut." There's a pause as the shower starts up and he adjusts the temperature. "Aaaaand somehow I just made myself hungry. Gross."

If someone had laughed at him like that before, he would've been mortified. Now, coming from Cater? He's a little embarrassed but he knows he can tease back. Another new feeling he can definitely get used to, and isn't he leveling up by leaps and bounds?

He can't stop! It's a full on giggle fit! Cater's red-faced and gasping as he holds his sides thanks to the additional comment about doughnuts. "Stop, I can't handle it!" His core was already burning, and now it's fully on fire. "There are tears in my eyes!"

Thankfully, it really is all in good fun, and it only makes Cater's heart feel more full. He's sure that Idia's going to be thinking of how to return the favor, but that's part of the fun. He wants Idia to tease him back. Each level of progress he makes only fills Cater with pride.

Idia smiles to himself at the sound of Cater laughing in the next room. These days, his dorm room echoes with happier sounds. Maybe it’s finally starting to feel right, like those sounds belong here.

He sighs happily at the thought as he piles his hair on top of his head in a messy twist and covers it with a wide band to keep it in place. It doesn’t need to be washed and waiting for it to dry takes a while. That done, he steps into the shower to start rinsing off.

“Maybe we should eat something!” he calls out over the spray. “And I guess hydrate, too?”

"Hydrate or diedrate, yeah?" The giggles start to subside as he listens to the water running, imagining Idia's body underneath it, the fire of his hair subsiding. "Want me to make a run to the kitchen after I shower?"

Not that he wants to leave, really, but Idia's right. They should keep up their energy if they're going to be doing this again. Even if they're not feeling hungry, their bodies are going to let them have it later for all the extra exertion.

“I can send a couple of drones to the cafeteria! How else do you think I get food when I don’t leave my room?” Idia lathers up as quickly as he can, wanting to get back to the bed so Cater can clean up. “I’ll submit the order once I’m done, you can let me know what you want.”

Once he’s clean on the outside, he takes a deep breath. Time to finish up, then. He turns his back to the spray and reaches around to push a finger up inside himself.

Oops, that was a loud moan. He wriggles his finger around to… ah… clean himself out.

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