By now, he shouldn't be so surprised that Idia's having such a negative reaction to something like this--but after the intense lovemaking they'd had? It was hard to really consider some of those triggers. "Mad?"
But he repeats the question to a temporarily empty room as Idia fetches the first aid kit. He takes it, but sets it down beside them, instead going to cup his boyfriend's trembling face. "Hey," he says, "look at me, do I look mad?"
Even if those tears haven't started falling yet, he brushes his thumbs underneath those beautiful, often-tired eyes. "Of course I'm not mad."
“B—but I hurt you…,” Idia whispers, gaze darting between Cater’s eyes and the wound. “I d—didn’t mean to… I’m s—sorry….”
Even if Cater’s not mad, Idia is now painfully aware that doing certain things with his mouth is likely off the table. He won’t risk going down on his boyfriend because he can’t imagine the agony of his damned shark teeth on that particular piece of Cater’s anatomy. Ugh, this stupid curse! Every time he starts to feel better about himself, something like this happens.
Sniffling, he leans into his boyfriend’s touch. “I’m so… so sorry….”
Cater shushes Idia gently, pulling him in so he can wrap his arms around him fully, petting his hair and kissing his forehead. "There's nothing to be sorry for," he assures, his tone gentle. "It didn't hurt--I barely even felt it, I swear."
He knows that his reassurances can only do so much when Idia has such deep struggles about himself, but he voices them all the same. "Everything that happened tonight, for me, was perfect."
Huddling against Cater, the dominant confidence Idia displayed earlier has melted back into his usual shyness. It helps to know Cater isn’t in much pain and he holds no resentment, but Idia isn’t used to things like this. Hurting others reminds him of his Overblot, makes him wonder if that rage is more a part of him than he’d like to admit.
“I just want you to do well on your exams. But I got too controlling and it went to my head….”
As Idia speaks, Cater continues running his hands through his hair. His body still feels like jelly, but with the sobering mood his mind starts to come back from that pleasured high. He rests his chin on the top of Idia's head. "I'm going to absolutely destroy my exams thanks to your help," he tells him. And then, in a more sultry whisper, adds:
"And you know what? I kinda like Idia on a power trip."
Idia shivers at that sultry whisper, the words getting to him through the cloud of his pessimism. It quiets his self-flagellation and brings a pink tinge to the ends of his hair. Ducking his head, he opens the first aid kit and gets out wound wash and gauze to clean the bite marks.
“Sorry if this stings,” he mumbles, dabbing at the wounds with the wet gauze.
Cater lets Idia treat the wound, careful to keep himself from hissing as antiseptic meets the bite marks. There's still a bit of tension he can't stop from forming in his shoulders as Idia works, but he keeps stroking his boyfriend's pale skin all the while.
"It's honestly fine, really. I like a little bit of pain here and there." He knows and is fully comfortable with being a little kinky, but it's still not exactly something they've actively talked about yet. "Would it help if I asked you to bite me?"
"Idia Shroud!" Raising his eyebrows as Idia looks up in his face, Cater gives him his trademark goofy grin, winking. "Are you underestimating the chaos of my bisexuality?"
He leans in, smile widening more wickedly as he keeps eye contact with his boyfriend. "Do it. Bite me again, right now."
Idia’s eyes nearly bulge out of his head and he drops the wad of gauze. The pink races through his hair, but there are faint touches of pale greenish-yellow here and there. Shaking his head fiercely, he grabs fresh gauze and tries to resume wound care.
"It can wait," Cater responds. The color is halfway encouraging and halfway a warning--he'll have to tread carefully from here. Instead of insisting that Idia bite him, he goes for a tackle to pin Idia underneath him. "What if I bite you?"
Idia tumbles back with a yelp, still looking like a deer in headlights. Through the alarm, he’s red to his ears. “C—Cay, let me… I’m trying to alt a healer here! You’re gonna get an infection!”
This boy’s going to be the end of him one day. Idia’s poor heart can’t take it!
Cater can't help himself from giggling. Idia protests, but that look on his face...
"Mmm, but you look so delicious, and I'm so hungry...wa ha ha ha!" Giving his best over-the-top villainous laughter, he comes down to run the edges of his own teeth along Idia's jawline and neck. "I simply can't resist such a tempting morsel!"
Idia eeps and shivers at the teeth on his neck. Cater is ridiculous! He does love his boyfriend's assertiveness, but those wounds... he doesn't know if he should feel horny (despite their mutual exhaustion) or terrified of what could happen if Cater goes untreated. "Y-- your shoulder... Cay, let me just finish...!"
Oh man, Cater's got a second wind and Idia knows he's in trouble.
Pretending to really think about it, Cater pulls back so he can sit up and look down at his boyfriend in his conflicted, mutually aroused but also tired and kind of anxious state. "Okay, I'll let you finish on one condition."
His face softens as he finds one of Idia's hands and squeezes it. "Trust me when I tell you that if you're taking something too far, I'll let you know."
Blinking, Idia doesn't move for a few seconds. Eventually his shocked expression eases as he clutches Cater's hand in return. He nods and sits up, taking a moment to huddle close to his boyfriend again.
"... okay." He has to trust Cater to know his own limits. Ugh, anxiety sucks so much.
Picking up where he left off, Idia finishes cleaning the bite before covering it with ointment and a waterproof patch. "Should stay on with no problems if you want to shower. I'll check it every day for you."
Cater pouts. Idia doesn't look too put out, but he's still clearly feeling distressed. He sighs, holding him close as his wound is treated, and then nuzzles their faces together as he seeks out a soft kiss. "More than anything, I want to hold you right now."
But...
"I'll shower if you come with me. Though we might both fall over."
“Let’s wait.” Idia really doesn’t want to fall over. The crash from orgasm to worry hit him pretty hard, and even without the concern over Cater’s injury it took most of Idia’s energy to restrain himself for the “intimate tutoring.” He’s drained.
So he steals a gentle kiss and nuzzles into Cater’s hair. “Nap first, shower later. Sleep reinforces learning.”
Sighing, Cater contents himself with wrapping himself around Idia as much as he can, dotting soft kisses on his skin as they get comfortable. "Sounds good," he says, wishing there was more that he could do to shake Idia out of the mood that he'd fallen into. Quiet for a moment, Cater starts to drift off. His eyes closed, he's unsure if Idia will even hear the sentiment he murmurs:
"When you can't love yourself, I'll love you that much harder."
Of course he hears it. Cater is his everything, his sole focus in these times together. "Thank you, Cay," he whispers back, relief warming the words. For all that his brain tries to keep him buried in gloom, his boyfriend truly helps to bring him out of the darkness. "I really mean it, thank you. For being patient, for loving me, all of it."
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But he repeats the question to a temporarily empty room as Idia fetches the first aid kit. He takes it, but sets it down beside them, instead going to cup his boyfriend's trembling face. "Hey," he says, "look at me, do I look mad?"
Even if those tears haven't started falling yet, he brushes his thumbs underneath those beautiful, often-tired eyes. "Of course I'm not mad."
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Even if Cater’s not mad, Idia is now painfully aware that doing certain things with his mouth is likely off the table. He won’t risk going down on his boyfriend because he can’t imagine the agony of his damned shark teeth on that particular piece of Cater’s anatomy. Ugh, this stupid curse! Every time he starts to feel better about himself, something like this happens.
Sniffling, he leans into his boyfriend’s touch. “I’m so… so sorry….”
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He knows that his reassurances can only do so much when Idia has such deep struggles about himself, but he voices them all the same. "Everything that happened tonight, for me, was perfect."
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“I just want you to do well on your exams. But I got too controlling and it went to my head….”
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"And you know what? I kinda like Idia on a power trip."
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“Sorry if this stings,” he mumbles, dabbing at the wounds with the wet gauze.
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"It's honestly fine, really. I like a little bit of pain here and there." He knows and is fully comfortable with being a little kinky, but it's still not exactly something they've actively talked about yet. "Would it help if I asked you to bite me?"
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But human mouths (even? especially? cursed ones) are filthy. What if Cater gets an infection? What if he scars? Is it really okay?!
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He leans in, smile widening more wickedly as he keeps eye contact with his boyfriend. "Do it. Bite me again, right now."
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Idia’s eyes nearly bulge out of his head and he drops the wad of gauze. The pink races through his hair, but there are faint touches of pale greenish-yellow here and there. Shaking his head fiercely, he grabs fresh gauze and tries to resume wound care.
“I—I’m still t—trying to c—clean this one!”
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This boy’s going to be the end of him one day. Idia’s poor heart can’t take it!
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"Mmm, but you look so delicious, and I'm so hungry...wa ha ha ha!" Giving his best over-the-top villainous laughter, he comes down to run the edges of his own teeth along Idia's jawline and neck. "I simply can't resist such a tempting morsel!"
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Oh man, Cater's got a second wind and Idia knows he's in trouble.
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Pretending to really think about it, Cater pulls back so he can sit up and look down at his boyfriend in his conflicted, mutually aroused but also tired and kind of anxious state. "Okay, I'll let you finish on one condition."
His face softens as he finds one of Idia's hands and squeezes it. "Trust me when I tell you that if you're taking something too far, I'll let you know."
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"... okay." He has to trust Cater to know his own limits. Ugh, anxiety sucks so much.
Picking up where he left off, Idia finishes cleaning the bite before covering it with ointment and a waterproof patch. "Should stay on with no problems if you want to shower. I'll check it every day for you."
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But...
"I'll shower if you come with me. Though we might both fall over."
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So he steals a gentle kiss and nuzzles into Cater’s hair. “Nap first, shower later. Sleep reinforces learning.”
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"When you can't love yourself, I'll love you that much harder."
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He has to get better. Cater deserves better.