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Cater Diamond ([personal profile] caycay) wrote2022-11-07 03:41 pm

I've Been Lonely


Cater Diamond x Idia Shroud PSL
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[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-06 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
Idia groans, slower to wake than usual. His dark circles are definitely deeper and his eyes barely open, squinting at Cater. He makes no move to let go of his boyfriend. Yes, he knows Riddle will have Cater’s head if he doesn’t rush back to his own dorm, but the need to cling is so strong. If he lets go, will Cater vanish forever? Will something awful happen to the other boy in the cruel outside world?

But he can’t be selfish all the time. Reluctantly, he untangles himself from Cater, only to wrap around his pillow instead. He buries his face in the plush lump, muffling his fatigue-roughened voice. “Bad day. Staying.”
hikikomortis: sigh ((-.-))

[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-06 08:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Idia grunts, but it's softer, less grumpy. It's an expression of affection when he's too damned tired to talk more. Cater lingering with him feels nice, but at the same time he doesn't want his boyfriend to get into trouble. But he should really say a proper goodbye at least, since Cater risks so much to be here with him. Sighing, he finally lifts his head and tries to smile, even if it's more than a little wobbly.

"Love you, too." His voice is so rough from sobbing, he sounds sick. "Don't get caught. Stealth mode."
hikikomortis: why me (( ̄ー ̄;)

[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-06 09:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Cater isn't the only one whose mood tanks the rest of the way when he's alone. Idia saw the dark bags under his boyfriend's eyes, heard the exhaustion laced into his words. It's his fault. He woke Cater up, kept him awake too long, because of his awful broken brain. Things had been good for so long, no wonder the return of Bad Things hit this hard. The gloom had to pay him back for daring to be happy.

Cater needs to make an informed decision on whether or not to stay with Idia. But how can he know everything that happened? Idia's gaze falls on his computer. Maybe he wouldn't be able to talk about it, but if he can show Cater the truth without being there to watch the shock and horror settle in, that would work. He has his skill set, he'll use it to communicate his darkest secrets.

So Idia drags himself out of bed and flops into his computer chair without bothering to do anything else first. Forget showering or brushing his teeth, forget breakfast or class, he has to slog through this heartbreaking project. Letting himself remember that last quick kiss-- maybe the last one he'll ever get if Cater is disgusted by him-- he rests his fingertips on the virtual keyboards and starts to work.
hikikomortis: sigh ((-.-))

[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
Idia looks back over his shoulder, clearly tired but calm in that blank sort of I’m coping by not thinking about it way. “Thanks, Cay. And… you don’t have to pretend. I know you’re buggy too.” He sighs and turns back to his code-filled screens. “Almost done. Gotta beta this before you’re done classes today.”

His fingers fly for a moment, then still. His shoulders rise and fall in a silent deep breath. “Hug? Please?” He wants one more before he risks burning everything down. He can eat later, even if it’s all cold.
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[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 03:21 am (UTC)(link)
Idia closes his eyes too, sagging into Cater's embrace. He'd be more relaxed if his project wasn't looming over him like a guillotine blade. Thankfully Cater can't read the complex code, otherwise this would be even more awkward. He's just so tired, but he'll be done soon.

"I...." He swallows. "I wish you could stay, too. But Riddle will crit you into a game over if you cut class."

The Heartslabyul Housewarden is a thorn rather than a rose more often than Idia would like. They already have so little time left before senior year and then graduation, plus Cater is running himself ragged trying to keep Riddle from exploding over curfew violations. How can Idia be worth all this?

"I'm sorry I ruined your sleep cycle. You feel like total crud, I can tell. Do you want to take a power nap for the rest of lunch, I'll wake you up in time for class?"
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[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
"You won't throw me off. I can focus better if I know you're resting, since you'll recharge a bit." Cater's presence nearby but without him hovering curiously really will help Idia work, as long as he doesn't give in to the temptation to say screw the project in favor of cuddling up for a nap himself. The feeling of that kiss lingers on his forehead, giving him an unexpected clarity. He has to do this, even if he hates it. "How long do you need to wake up to get back to class? Ten? Fifteen?"
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[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
Gods, Cater had to ask. Idia can't say no to him. "... okay. I'll set my alarm. Big spoon, little spoon, or face to face?"

It's a question they've asked each other so many times since they started napping or sleeping in the same bed. No matter what they do, the cuddling usually lets them both sleep much better, except for last night. At least a nap won't let Idia sink so deep into REM that he risks another nightmare.
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[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
He doesn't have to. Idia sets an alarm on his phone before he finally gets up on his own, stretching without being too obvious. He's been hunched over his computer all day, barely getting up except for bathroom breaks. He hasn't even showered, still smelling faintly of stale sweat. Tucking himself back into his bed, he holds out his arms for Cater.

"Don't look too long. Sleep." He'd pout playfully if he had the energy for it. Hopefully Cater won't end up too rumpled from this. If Riddle gives him a hard time, Idia might actually emerge from his room long enough to smack the diminutive Housewarden upside his rose-red head.
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[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
Idia feels Cater give in to sleep and holds back a quiet hitching breath. He doesn't want to lose this, but it's not his choice. Cater has to know, it's not right to keep Idia's sins from him. It's not self-sabotage, it's honesty. He holds Cater close and closes his eyes, though this time it's his turn to fail at finding rest.

The alarm goes off exactly when Idia set it, but it's still far too soon. He gives Cater an extra two minutes, though it's just as much about letting himself have that time. "Cay? Gotta get up, it's time. I'm sorry." He doesn't let go just yet, though.
hikikomortis: sigh ((-.-))

[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
It would be so easy to send a message that Cater has fallen ill, to give him an excuse to stay here for a long rest. But it would raise too many questions, why he's not in his own dorm, why Idia is the one notifying the teachers. Still, it's Cater's choice. It always has been. Idia can work around him regardless.

"I can ping your next class, tell them you're sick. They'll believe it with how you looked earlier."

He doesn't hold back from pressing a kiss to his boyfriend's forehead, a token of a love that won't fade even if they're separated. Idia will love Cater until the day he dies, whether or not they're still together tomorrow.
hikikomortis: sigh ((-.-))

[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 05:18 am (UTC)(link)
Idia nods, nuzzling into Cater's hand. He leans in to touch one more kiss to the corner of his boyfriend's mouth and then lets him go. If he didn't, they'd both give in to the urge to stay curled up together. He feels so guilty for what he has to do. Cater's exhausted, and who knows if he'll get any rest after he sees Idia's project. Maybe he should wait for tomorrow, steal one more day of happiness....

So selfish. It's why he Overblotted, because he wanted to fix his mistake even if it cost the entire world.

"I'll be waiting," he whispers. Gods, he wants to sink into the bed and disappear.
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[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 05:39 am (UTC)(link)
Idia knows he's coming. He knows what time classes are over, he can see Cater through the security feeds. If his boyfriend arrives in his room, there won't be any way Idia will have the heart to ask him to go, because he can't bear the thought of watching Cater play the game.

Cater's phone chimes with a message from Idia. The subject line, when he checks it, says: "URGENT. Read entire message before opening attachment."

The body of the message: "Please go somewhere private before starting the attached app. You may not enter Ignihyde dorm for this purpose. Do not reply before completion. Do not stop before completion. Do not share. App will run to completion one time before self-deleting. You may pause as necessary for your comfort. Notification will be sent to developer upon completion."

At the end of the message is the app download link, titled simply: TRUTH.EXE
Edited 2022-12-07 05:40 (UTC)
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[personal profile] hikikomortis 2022-12-07 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
The app opens as soon as it downloads, taking Cater to a window with a black screen and a gray START button. Touching the button brings him into a familiar digital setting: the first-person dungeon crawler he'd seen Idia toy with briefly before they got together. Apparently it's his own design, remade for a singular purpose.

The unseen avatar marches forward through the silent, gloomy corridor, down winding staircases, where the light grows more and more sickly green. At the bottom is a stone floor, with a huge, circular stone gate. A wavy gap splits the gate's cover in two, that green light spilling through.

Chibis of Riddle and Azul appear. They talk through text boxes, speaking of Idia and Ortho, of fighting phantoms. They talk of the brothers trying to reset the world and what it means. They carry a huge golden spear between them.

Cater's phone speakers echo with the cries of the damned, and the Shroud brothers appear: Ortho's massive, dark form, and Idia's twisted cyber-armor. He has spared no detail in their repulsive shapes. Riddle and Azul light up the spear and blast Ortho with a bright flash and a loud crack of thunder.

Idia's Overblotted form burns, a raging orange inferno. Hate flashes in his eyes.

Riddle and Azul are chased off. Jamil and Leona take their place. Another piercing shot of thunder and lighting, another fit of rage from Idia at Ortho's pained cry. Then again from Vil, Rook, and Epel. Ortho falls. Idia, freed of his Overblot, lets himself fall with his brother. Vil's actions spare the elder's life, leaving Idia to spell out everything. He remembers the words spoken, they're engraved into his memory forever. Programming all the dialogue took only time, nothing else, nothing else at all.

How his selfish wish cost Ortho his future. How he wanted to reset the world by bringing the current one to an end, regardless of what it cost everyone else. How he became a monster long, long before he Overblotted. He tells the story of what happened that night in STYX, the culmination of so many years of agony, and shows Cater what it twisted him into.

And then the screen goes dark, with a short message: TRUTH: ENDING.

It fades out, and a new message appears: SECRET ENDING: NIGHTMARE. CONTINUE?
Edited 2022-12-07 06:17 (UTC)

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