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Cater Diamond ([personal profile] caycay) wrote2023-12-15 12:45 pm
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citizendetective: (they're too smart‚ and they're too rich)

[personal profile] citizendetective 2025-03-25 05:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, graduation taking you by surprise is pretty typical! It did for me, too; I felt like I put in a lot of work and effort, but I still assumed that nothing I could do was ever going to be enough for the Admiral.

[A pause.]

But, Cater, you don't actually think you did nothing, do you?
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[personal profile] caycay 2025-03-30 08:51 am (UTC)(link)
Okay, maybe not nothing, but...I don't know. Do you really think I deserve it?

[Was he really ready? It felt both amazing but...daunting. Like he had something to live up to, now. A title he had to prove he was worthy of.]
citizendetective: (never trust a mustache)

[personal profile] citizendetective 2025-03-31 04:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Do you think you don't?

[Sorry, Cater. She may not officially be his warden anymore, he may not officially need a warden anymore, but she's still going to play the role.]

If you really don't think you deserve it, I'd be curious to hear why! But if you can't think of anything specific, and it's just a kneejerk reaction... then maybe that's a sign.
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[personal profile] caycay 2025-03-31 04:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[He takes a deep breath. Okay, if Misty was encouraging him...he needed to think it through. Cater shifts from foot to foot.]

I think I'm just...surprised. Maybe I got too used to things being the way they are. It's kind of scary thinking that a new chapter is starting, but...kind of exciting, too? I always used to dread the idea of transitioning, because that meant starting over, and I'd feel so helpless. That was why I got here in the first place--because thinking about graduating from school after I'd spent years there when I'd never had that much time in one place before--the idea made me completely fall apart.

[He rubs one arm, looking sheepish.]

But I'm not going to do that, now. Cut everyone out and pretend I don't care, I mean. I want to actually...move forward with a real plan, and hold onto things that mean a lot to me even if that opens me up to any of the harder things that come with it. I guess it helps that I know I won't be doing it alone.

[So...maybe he was ready, after all. To really be standing here and find himself not being so desperate to stay.]
citizendetective: (what the fuck‚ bro)

[personal profile] citizendetective 2025-04-04 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[Misty is quiet as he muses; she even keeps her body language under control, even though she wants to gasp and grin and reach out and clasp his hands. It's only when he's done that she says, with a sly smile:]

Did you just talk yourself around to believing it after all?
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