Oh, no, please don't get a complex; trust me, I get it.
[She pulls her legs up onto the bed and sits crosslegged, completing the girl-at-sleepover vibe.]
Like, for me-- well, there's a lot of reasons why I used to put on an act for people. I still sometimes struggle with the urge to do it now! This smile is twenty-five percent fake.
[She pauses, and then visibly tones down the grin a bit. There. Now it's only fifteen percent fake.]
I don't like being vulnerable in front of people, I don't like letting people see the real me because the real me was picked on when I was a kid - and, honestly, manipulating people can be really easy. And fun! A totally bad idea that isn't worth it, but still a really good time for the person doing it.
[She shrugs, her expression turning genuinely fond.]
We're still going to work on better coping mechanisms for you, but I don't want you to think I don't understand the draw.
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[She pulls her legs up onto the bed and sits crosslegged, completing the girl-at-sleepover vibe.]
Like, for me-- well, there's a lot of reasons why I used to put on an act for people. I still sometimes struggle with the urge to do it now! This smile is twenty-five percent fake.
[She pauses, and then visibly tones down the grin a bit. There. Now it's only fifteen percent fake.]
I don't like being vulnerable in front of people, I don't like letting people see the real me because the real me was picked on when I was a kid - and, honestly, manipulating people can be really easy. And fun! A totally bad idea that isn't worth it, but still a really good time for the person doing it.
[She shrugs, her expression turning genuinely fond.]
We're still going to work on better coping mechanisms for you, but I don't want you to think I don't understand the draw.